I’m over I’m under, inside out, right side up, Upside down.
I surrender myself to this whirlwind, this hurricane that rages
I’m the cage that guards the world from the chaos that is this mind, this body
It belongs to me yet it owns me
I restrain it, yet it consumes me
So illogical, quite delusional this beautiful darkness
My home, my self, this conscious unconsciousness
It’s a raging battle me against myself
I am the victor, yet also the vanquished
I conquer myself in this lost battle
Drowning further into the insanity.
Just incase you wonder, at these nooks and crannies I have been knocking, every now and then I do feel the tingles pass by, time and time again I could almost grasp it but not quite there………yet.
I did think this would be a bother of what-ifs, who-cares and if-nots?….but somehow it lingered longer.
As our fingers spun in unison, forever binding the twists of union.
Accidentally, coincidentally, and quite apparently into you I fell, crashed into you like a ray of light on a hidden crack.
You broke me out, held me whole. Into each other we unfold. A double helix, each twist unimaginable without the other. We disappear, I find you. We found us. Here we stand, held in time, upon whispers of winds that will never cease
I see you, you see me, like new vision entrust unto the blind. A kaleidoscope wonder of colours incomprehensive in meaning, yet a clear revelation of the gift.
What is it? A ballad of love unsung.
I am just a cocaine hero, messing with the wrong cowboy, who rides a nameless horse.
In time we will both realize this little game cannot be won. No victor, none vanquished. We’ve made our bed on a mattress filled with broken dreams.
Both seeing yet blind to the existence of hope the lies in our unity either in death or life.
But we choose to daydream as we lay in own despair, fighting like heroes on a nonexistent quest. On a never-ending journey to faraway place.
Here we found the seams of sanity had burst, out of it grew a wilderness of emotions choking reality, smothering it to death.
In this fortress of walls so high, we are entrapped within, surrounded by monsters so lavishly painted by this painful pain we try to hide.
Hold me, never let go
My pieces are yours to put together
Be my shield
I’ll let you enclose me
Break my fall, I won’t resist
Be that shoulder I’ll always lean on
You can’t heal me, we’ll leave that to time
So soothe me
Make me feel whole
I’m in your embrace
My wounds I surrender to you
Be my tourniquet
Where did you come from? A land unknown, a faraway place? I am left to wonder. You won’t tell me today, nor tomorrow, not even in the ever after yet to come.
In my own delusion a private hell I built. The monsters preyed on me day and night, never a moment of peace had I.
I kept digging deeper into this labyrinth hoping to find the proverbial pot of gold that I knew was not in existence in any dimension of reality.
I was my own captain, a pirate, vagabond of dreams, sailing away in search of a mystical treasure buried on an island enchanted by my nightmares.
I was on my journey to this island when you stumbled upon me. Or was it fate? Did it destine our stars to cross? Or was I your pot of gold?
Were you chasing me as I disappeared like a rainbow, did you patiently wait in hope that I would show after every rainfall?
What was it like this journey? Did you cross the seven seas and seven hills? Did you meet the hidden mythical beasts? Did you ride a winged unicorn?
I want to know, what it was like finding me.
There’s that way you look at me,
It gets me excited,
That look that says:
You fascinate me this being…..
Give me a moment in time,
A moment that could define eternity,
Without surpassing a minute
Let me inside you,
Let our minds collide,
Let’s explore the amazing mazes
And get lost in each others minds.
That look tells me everything.
Only hunger in your eyes alone can match that desire in me.
I’ll satisfy your hunger, while you fill fully this desire of mine.
You hunger, I desire,
Each for the other.
Trying to stay above the water, yet drowning seems inevitable.
Its destiny written in the stars.
Spiralling out of control, tumbling down in an endless fall.
I can’t seem to stop. There’s no one to break this fall, maybe I can’t see them.
Where are you now? I’m still falling.
There’s no light at the end of this tunnel, I can only see the dark shadows chasing me as I keep falling. I’m only just out of their reach, yet they stay close.
These shadows, are they really chasing or am I the one calling.
I don’t really understand, or maybe I don’t want to.
Its beautiful this seduction of the mind, an alternate reality where its me and my shadows, talking to each other.
I take lead and they follow, yet they taunt me for I don’t know who they really are.